I start a new job next week. I’m really excited, except now I’m also terrified. Success is really, really scary. I don’t even consider this success. But for two years, I have been hoping that somebody, anybody, would take a chance on me and think I am worthy of full-time, salaried work. And now that somebody does, I’m freaking out.
The emails have already started to come in. "V., we have signed you up for this training." "V., you will be attending this meeting and you have to present on the program. Just introduce yourself, because you’ll only have been working for us for a week." I’m really excited about all of this. There is a lot to learn, and I feel the need to prove myself and hit the ground running.
But what if I fall down? What if I’m not good at this job? What if it isn’t everything I think it will be? What if it’s too hard and I never have any free time and I become one of those people who is too busy to exercise, eat right, read for pleasure, or have any kind of fun whatsoever?
I do not want all of you to reassure me that I’ll be great. Instead, I want you to overwhelm me with stories about dumb things you have done when you started a new job, or little tips or techniques that you have for staying organized, staying on task, being punctual, being positive and upbeat, or anything else you think might help me. I will be essentially the master of my domain, running my own office space, and I need to know how best to manage and track my time, how to organize files, and how to make sure I’m on top of my caseload and nothing slips through the cracks – so lay it on me, fellow employed people!